One year ago on this day, in 2014, I was, for lack of a better word, a complete mess.
I was barely keeping it together and the only way I knew how to protect myself was to keep taking on more workload - school, work, productions, outside responsibilities, anything that could take my mind off. I ended up crashing and burning so hard and landed myself two tickets to A&E.
I never want to go through that ever again.
Things got better slowly in the middle of the year - I directed a play and taught theatre to prisoner's children in Nepal, celebrated my 21st, found myself a darling group of freshies in NUS who are extremely dear to me, stumbled upon Miss Singapore International and won Miss Personality, took adventure by the hands and went on student exchange in Shanghai.
I'm proud to say that I'm no longer a shell of my former self as I was a year ago. 2014 was such a tumultuous year for me but it did reveal to me my own vulnerabilities, desires, and needs ;it certainly gone on to show who truly were the important people in my life and what were the important beliefs I need to hold steadfast to.
Just as I thought I was finally becoming an adult, I made so many unfathomable mistakes. But I have accepted that part of my life and have moved on. The past is a place of reference, not a place of residence. I can only hope that I don't forget all the painful lessons I've learnt as I brace myself for the new year, 2015.
I'm quite into listography so here is a list of 10 important things on how to keep the crazy out:
- Take care of your physical self
- Consider & plan for the worst case scenarios
- Do your best but know & accept your limits
- Think as linearly as possible (Focus on one thing at a time)
- Don't accept other people's timeline as your own
- Be extremely protective of your time
- Get assistance if needed
- Reverse engineer the life you want to live
- Let other people in
- Get rid of the people & relationships that drains you
Thank you to those who came along with me on my adventures and dramatic episodes in 2014.
Let's start another chapter in 2015! x